Accidents do happen1:06 AM
Call me clumsy.
Almost had my right ring finger cut off from a measly house accident. I was merely positioning the electric fan in our living room; maybe I was a bit absent-minded, held on to the head of the fan to move it, when all of a sudden, I felt the blade hit my finger.
The doctor said the accident could have chopped my finger off - how dreadful and depressing. My finger was partly cut but it's still in one whole piece. My long nails somehow saved me from the probability of having my finger terribly damaged. Though I lost my nail (that was painful), the doctor said it will grow back in a few months time. How I wish it will, really. *fingers crossed*
While I was crying over my lost nail and bloody finger, I remembered Raissa Laurel - the girl who had both of her legs amputated because of a pillbox that exploded too close to her during the bar examinations street party. Despite her fate, she has remained positive and very cheerful. During her media interviews, no sign of depression was seen on her face - all smiles and her eyes beaming with hope. The kind of strength and spirit that she has are something that I could only wish to possess in my heart. So I told myself, "Accidents do happen, and even though I'd end up having this finger chopped, I should suck it up and still feel blessed because other people out there might be going through something tougher than this."
At first, I couldn't look at my finger so I didn't really know how much damage it had. When I found out that it's still in one piece with a deep cut and removed nail, I couldn't help but say out loud, "Thank you Lord!" I was in tears; not because of the pain but because of relief and gratefulness. Yesterday was one of those days when it really hit me hard; that I could lose whatever God has given me anytime - my finger, my hand, my legs, my sight, my life, either in a tragic, noble or stupid cause.
Now I'm teaching myself to be more alert and careful even in the simplest, everyday, regular things that I do as a person - cooking, commuting, washing, bathing, (as for me just moving a fan) etc. because life shouldn't be taken for granted. Not even in a minute!
Take it from me: be always thankful for your life, for everything you have (materially) and everything you are (physically, mentally etc.). You may have soooo many complaints about yourself and this life you're living but keep in mind that you are better off than those who are suffering, that you are always blessed no matter how difficult the endeavors God puts you through. Value everything about this world, everything about you, that God has lent. He could take it back anytime.
To my Kuya, whom I've never said my proper goodbye or sweetest goodnight the night he was taken away... I love you always and I don't want to leave this world so soon like what you did. So, I'm living life seriously but with a hint of fun and craziness and still be mindful and really extra careful in everything I do, in everywhere I go, in everyone I'm with.
To God, thanks for saving my finger, giving me a boyfriend who has always been a life-saver ever since and a mother whom I argue with a lot of times but at the same time whom I love so much (and who loves me greater than "so much"). The rest, I'll be saving in my prayers.
To everyone, stay safe always!!!