Figuring it out

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Pants w/ triangle print Thrifted | Black top | Dice ring DIY | Brown faux leather cuff Bazaar |
Airplane earrings
Bazaar | Other rings Quiapo | Star-print socks SM dept. store |
Necklace
Gift |


Love my airplane earrings.


Still at square one.

My thesis is still non-existent and I'm freaking out. I'm literally running out of time and I'm not getting any younger. Though being a student is indeed a lot of fun, I can't be one forever. I have to finish, close a chapter and open a new one.


Until now, (I'm this close to the finish line) I still don't know what to do with my life, with my future. I want to do tons of things but I know I can't. The tough part is figuring out what to do with my life. I know I'm not the only one thinking about this. But when I see people my age (even younger), see them be successful, see them have direction; I can't help but wonder why is it so difficult for me to find my own path.

Why can't I claim for myself that I wanna be this, I wanna be that? Why do I feel like I'm in a mid-life crisis when definitely I'm not? And why is it so hard to focus on things that I should prioritize? Urrgh.

Thinking too much or better yet, over thinking is really that stressful noh?

BTW, a little disclaimer: I'm writing these things not because I'm too self absorbed. This goes out to all imperfect human beings who think they are the only ones who believe that their future is "unsure", to those who haven't found their true calling yet, and to those who remain looking for their purpose in life.


Cliche? Yes. But life is made of cliche's anyway. Almost everyone goes through or have gone through almost the same things, almost the same situations, like first love, first kiss, first failure, first day of school, ugly betty days, and a series of what ifs and what nots.






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10 comments

  1. we all have days when we feel like this. i wish you'll find your path soon :) pretty airplane earrings btw

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  2. love ur accessories all so adorable
    following u,please do follow me back if u like

    xoxo,
    http://natalieshiashia.blogspot.com/

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  3. Oh man, I've had day like this! Love those earrings.

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  4. I feel for you Melai. From time to time, I go through a phase like that. Minsan iniisip ko, baka I'm not trying enough or I'm doing something wrong kaya I always find myself in the same spot. :[

    On a side note, i love your accessories! Akin na lang yung dice ring haha! And the airplane earring is love.. :D

    Lee {spunkandglam.blogspot.com}

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  5. Oh, I think I'm going through a phase like that right now. It's been interesting though-mostly I'm excited to try applying to many companies and then see what will land on my lap. Enjoy your last days of school!

    On another note, those pants are awesome, Melai! I don't have anything nice to say about the earrings mainly because I'm scared of flying. Haha

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  6. Hi Melai! Nice rings! And did you just say "Quiapo" for your other accessories? I so so so love Quiapo!By the way, about my supplier, I can go there with you if you want :)

    Simone's Closet

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  7. oh melai...you know how i feel about my future.
    i think we know but we're afraid to take the risk because 1) it's scary...2) it takes a lot of work...well, at least that's how i feel.

    ps. i'm resigning in a month...and i don't know what to do.hehe.

    ♥ vanilla ice cream ♥

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  8. Love your leather bracelet! And the plane erarings!!

    Follow your blog since now ;)

    Kisses
    Lara

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