Yellow checkered tie-top / cropped top Thrifted | Lace skirt F-STOP (P350 order here) | Dove Necklace
Five years ago, the family would religiously go to Forest Lawn before or after going to church. It was the only place where we could be complete again. I wonder what would my brother be, what would he accomplish, what would the family be like if his life had not been taken away from him.
I couldn't count anymore how many times I shared the story in church or bible studies way back. They said talking about it would help. Yeah, it did. Now, keeping it to myself and saying only a little seemed to feel better. I've missed a couple of Sundays especially if I have work or school assignments to do but it's great not to feel guilty about it thinking that he would understand. Maybe it's what people call "moving on".
As I think about myself, being 20, I know I haven't achieved all my goals and aspirations yet. I wouldn't want to die anytime soon. But he did leave at this age. I couldn't, I shouldn't, I wouldn't want to because there's still so much more to live for.
